Melissa Jun Rowley's Posterous

Boarding the Weightless Wonder

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Posted June 22, 2010

Exterior of Zero G plane

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Posted June 21, 2010

Here's the thing about Hollywood...

Thrown under the police car the night everyone wanted a piece of you 

and no one would give you any peace, 

that’s where I should have been before the steel bars locked behind you, 

before your longest intermission.

Where was I?

Resisting some feral urge to vamp out against all the mating coyotes in the Valley,

and on my knees praying I could lick away the wounds of a young gun who was

feeling less than zero, 

while Ziggy’s stardust sprinkled down fighting to fly us to the moon.  

The Zombies said “This Will be Our Year.”  

How could the penmen of the line “Who’s Your Daddy” be wrong?

Your latest naked embarrassment—reports of it flood my inbox,

 and I can’t help but think of when it was you and me against the world, 

hiding out in your warm and windowless cave, 

thinking we could save each other,

 and that maybe we were made for each other. 

 But I was just a slave to your mind, 

or maybe I was just another star fucker, 

being tricked by the opposite of love.

I wrote the greatest screenplay in my dreams..

What if we met in a world where there was only music?

No egos

No press

No People Magazine

No pilot season

Only music...

That’s the thing about Hollywood,  

there are a million and one reminders.

They asked, “What could you possibly give the man who has everything, 

but almost always loses everything?”

At a time when

I was so immature…

I was so insecure…

I could only trust that you’d someday kill me, 

along with the buried dreams of a 10-year-old girl, 

even though you said,

 “today wasn’t such a good day to die.”

And I left…

I left the one city that's felt like home to rid myself of all of you,

 only to return to see if I could find something else to replace 

your heart and your hands and your voice – that 30-million dollar voice.

The voice I listened for the last time I stomped down Vermont Street,

 where Pulp Fiction eyes and ears once witnessed us talk 

of the day when we’d become three…

They can say what they want.

They can print what they will.

You’re still the toughest act to follow. 

                       

                                     ~Melissa Jun Rowley, @MelissaRowley

Posted May 4, 2010

The Entertainment for Our Last Night at Rancho La Puerta

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He was so giddy and gleeful.  Latin music, the song "Tequila," and flowing wine followed.  You can imagine what happened next. 

Twilight in Tecate, Baja California, Mexico

Thanks to the generous gem that she is, Julie Gallaher, I've been at the 70 year old legendary spa Rancho La Puerta in Tecata, Baja, California, Mexico with 17 powerhouse women for the last three days.  We've come together from different parts of the country to share our professional expertise, life passions, and enthusiasm for social media. 

In addition to soaking up the knowledge and compassion of this talented and diverse group of women, I'm learning to relax again.  I don't think I've felt this at peace and connected to nature since I was in my homeland of another life, Kauai, Hawaii.   While I hike for an hour a half everyday back in Los Angeles, the smog and urban jungle stifle my lungs and creativity at times.  

Here at Rancho La Puerto, not only am I sleeping for more than four hours every night, and embracing multiple free spa services (energy balancing massage, seaweed wrap, aroma therapy manicure and pedicure), I'm learning how to cook!  For all my friends out there unfamiliar with my adversity toward doing anything domestic, seeing me in the kitchen may not seem like a big deal.  But for those of you who heard my last boyfriend call me the "ultimate bachelor" when he looked in my refrigerator, you know cooking is a huge step for me. 

Around twilight today, we took a field trip to the ranch's garden where we pulled all the vegetables for our meal (Grilled salmon with Papaya Kiwi Salsa, Indian Dahl with Ginger Peanut sauce, Basmati Rice Medley with Wild Rice Black Lentils and Shitake Mushrooms, and Cucumber salad Nippon style.)  Our gracious Executive Chef Michel Stroot gave us a hands-on cooking lesson at the charming La Cocina Que Canta, and I didn't burn down the kitchen!:) 

I'll be chasing waterfalls and taking 6AM mountain hikes the rest of this week.  Pics to come!  In the meantime, say hello to the scenery and awwww to my new furry little friends. 

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Handwalking in Balboa Park

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An Open Book Hard to Read Until the New Beginning

ME:  I can think of him now, remember how he used to look at me, and not feel any yearn or like I'm dying.  

It's all just a weightless memory now. 

AV Flox: He's become a real past chapter.  Now you can write a new one. 
I feel I am trapped in the last paragraph of my own. 

ME: Each line of your encounter will get easier to read and digest until the end of the paragraph.  
And over time, you'll remember only the most beautiful miraculous parts of the story.